thepharmacist

Don't you hate when your trying to forget something, especially someone, and it's hard enough for you without everyone bringing it up, but they keep on doin it? I seriously was doing so well, and then all of a sudden everyone started talking to me about him. and now I'm staring to miss him. And I don't want to. Because theres no hope. If I thought that it was awkward at first, I was sorly misstaken. I don't know what his problem is. At least at first he would still sorta talk to me. Now he doesn't even look in our general direction. I don't know if it's just me, or everyone. I guess someone like that doesn't deserve a second thougt. But when you go from seeing and talking to someone everyday, to not even looking at them, it's hard.
I really did like you alot... good job.

I'm really sad now, thinking about it. I always was so excited for it. Like I figured even if i didn't have a boyfriend to go with, I would at least have a date, or just go with friends. But since the guy who I wanted to go with more than anything backed out, and was an asshole, I really have no erge to go. Like I do want to just to go. To be able to experience my senior prom, but I don't want to go by myself. And I definatly do not want to see Him there. To see him there with some other girl would seriously make me want to punch them both in the face. Oh well, me and Sarah canhang out. I'll wear my dress (my dream dress that i bought when I thought I was going) and I'll go out to dinner with Sarah. Ha, that would be fun.
People keep telling me just to go, but since today was the last day to buy tickets, and I am sitting here writing this, so i obviousy am without ticket, i guess thats it, I'm not going to my senior prom.
That pipe in my room, and the beer in the fridge are looking better and better.